DISASTERS. FALLS.

This is outdated. I was supposed to post about this yesterday but the internet connection was so lame. So, I decided to post this today.

Yesterday, I am having my Geo, Maths and English topical test. Honestly, I didnt do my revision. I was so busy and one day, I am asking myself this, 'Why are there so many works/ projects to do before the exam arrived? ' I need someone to give me the answer for that. So yeah, Maths was all about polygons. It was totally driving me crazy. But whatever it was, some of the question was damn so easy. And thanks JHY for the caring from you. Anyways, when the teacher walked around to see our answer. She saw Jill's answer, she knows it was wrong, so she tell Jill the steps to solve the problem. Ended up, she was just like giving the answer away. Thanks God for that. My head was cracking up for a few minutes before i heard her tells the steps to Jill.

Next, my English. Ibloggedwithmybrokenandusingthesimpleenglishrite. Haha. Dramatic one. When I was about to write the second essay of mine, my English teacher come and read my first essay. I got a lot of mistakes to solve after she tells me everything. I was just like.. -_-''.. My hand half dying writing hurrily cause when she came, it was about 12.10. We are supposed to off at 12.25. Ahh~ My mistakes was, I wrote the past tense on the rules, I know it was wrong, but I dont have any idea how to until the teacher came by. Thanks teacher! and imagine, I do the last essay for 10 minutes. Crack! Thanks God I manage to have this things settle down. :)

Geography was totally crazy, me and Jill call it. When I first received the paper, I myself was totally awake looking at the paper. It was so damn easy. I've told you earlier, I didn't do any revision before the test. So, that's the reason why. But if I am not mistaken, the students that study Geo was totally blur out also, rite? We didnt expect that the question will be sotheveryhard. When the 25 minutes arrive, our Geo teacher says this, all of the blanks must be filled up! If not, I will deduct your mark. Errkk! Half of the paper was so hard. So, I just answer the question simply. I got no idea also that time. My partner also didn't know what to do.

Har har! Look at this, read carefully.

For today, nothing special.
I still can't go for ISCF with Christie. sigh !
She's look so SAD . Is it ? HAHA .
Its hard for me to tell her that Im not going
to go for ISCF cause she will say this to me
"ARGH ! ALASAN !" .
EKEK . I don't want she say that to me .
I want her to say this " Oh ya ? Its okey . " :)
So , its look not so rude . muahaha *evil laugh*

-Jilliecious :)

Notes : I do look sad yeah? I didnt for sure! From the first time she told me that she is going for ISCF, i know that she is not going to keep that promise wisely. She have just attended ISCF for a just two times, and then, she was dissapear. Wherelse?? Of course at her home, online like there was no other time. She should really spend her time with God, most importanly. Anyways, I am not angry/ sad. Christie was not that emotional girl!.. :)

As you realise, I've change my blog name from Speechless Story Of Hers to reminiscene i tell you. Why you asked me? That was because, I am sharing you my memories here. I think that Reminiscene is the best words to discribe it, yeah??. Poof I shall go. :)

Signing Out,
Christie-Kisstie

POEMS. DISASTERS

The Music to Keep

I heard a song within me
Was it my heart who sings our song?
And as I listen to the melody,
I can't make myself asleep 'til dawn.

My soul started to sing
And my mind begins to think again,
Trying to remember the times when we're together,
The times when we're not friends, but lovers.

Does anyone hear the music?
Do you ever care for the lonely beat?

As the music plays over and over,
Well... it's you I always remember.
The tears started to fall like rain into the river,
For the thought that we can't be together forever.

I'm not a perfect person, I know.
And in committing mistakes, I always fall.
Loneliness?
Oh, it always comes,
Specially now, that you were gone.

Couldn't be just you and me
And build our dreams to reality?
But then, it's time for you to say goodbye.
I know I've LIVED, LOVED, LOST and DIE.

Our song comes to an end
But, somehow, I hope that my heart will mend.
Even if I know that we can't be together again:
This music in my heart will keep on playing the refrain
-by freyjaeda

:) I love that poem very much. Ahhhh!! I am addicted reading and writing poem. Sigh. Someone get that away from me. Wasting my papers writing about the poem. haha. Somedays, I'll post one of my poem up. Heee. Soon.Very soon.

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MEMORIES. WILL. NEVER. FADES.

Aida & myself in the class laugh like maniac. :) I love this pic. Unique.

Us, with the half face of Aida. We are the 4 besties. They guide me safely through my life.

Hang out without Eliza in the photo at KFC :)

The prefects & myself enjoying the last day on our Graduation Day.

My darlings with Miss Sharifah, our BM teacher

I miss my life in primary school badly :(

CAN. YOU. REALISE. IT?

When you were in my heart,
You was the one I think daily,
Every moment & time of my life,
Can you realise it? Even once?

When I am in trouble,
I seek for you and ask for help from you,
You helped me with whatever you can do,
Can you realise it? Even once?

When we quarrel,
We will have a very bad memories,
But it ended up, we get back to our normal life,
Can you realise it? Even once?

Now, that everything is over,
I miss and you leave a hole in my heart,
Can you feel that too?
Can you realise it? For once in a life time?


When everything is settle down,
You do regret something,
And you want our me relationship to start again,
You think I want?! I was not that type.

When everything ends,
It ends there and will never repeat,
Forever it will stay, whatever my answer was,
Eventhough, I do miss and still love you.

XOXO..


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The quotes was so emotional. LOL! Notes : I was not that emo.

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Today class, as usual, hmm.. No Comment. Haha. Maths was totally freakin' bored. To my classmates : I heard you all critics about her, don't you dare to make excuse that you don't critic her, I knew everything. Bring me my beautiful teacher that teach us for 6 months back, please! I want her to be back. But whatever it is, everything is changing, you know. Nothing lasts forever. I know mostly, my classmates hates my 6 months Maths teacher very much because she always give us a lots of homewroks to do. So what? As a student, you should be responsibble on that and take your change to studies the things you dont understand with your teacher.
Lesson : Never hates a teacher, because you will miss them when they leave you. Honestly, if I tell you what is happening is the class, you'll be laughing like a true maniac. So, my classmates should know more about this. It could be 1/4 of the students in the class what i mean by. Uh oh. Like they read my blog :P hahahahhaha.

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Geography. I enjoy the lesson with half body dying. I don't know the reason why I don't like Geography nowadays. It feels like so boring. Topical test is up within next week, every subjects are on. So, I've got to study hard again before exam arrive. Exam is just around the corner. Sooner. Days by days it runs towards me. :)

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I am addicted listening songs from-
* Taylor Swift
* Chris Tomlin
* Jonas Brother
* Leona Lewis
* Reba McEntire.


Signing out,
Christie-Kisstie

FAILURE! I. HATE. THE. MOST.

OHHH..

[SUCH A FAILURE]

HOW COULD THIS HAPPEN TO ME?

SIGHHHHHH!..

SUFFERINGS. SHE.DONT.DESERVE

* indescribable

When I was online yesterday, on MSN, I realise the two darlings of mine, both called Janice was on their way surfing the net. Sadly, I didnt have my time chatting with them cause I have to do some projects that drives me crazy nowadays. Last year, I do loves projects more than anything. But now, the price of the oil hikes, so the paper price also hikes lah. ISH!!! Hating that very much. I cant do my own scrapbooks. Today class was totally makes me -_-''.. Totally bored! But not as bored as yesterday. blerk! BM class was great, I have a chance to sit with one of my mate, Aranxtia and bully her. We chats about our primary school memories. And she told me her worst memories in primary school. Har Har! secrets was the one she told me. Aranxtia! You rocks! Geography, as usual, the teacher looks so funny. She always get angry for just 1 or 2 minutes, after that, she will laugh or smile or whatever it was. Sometimes, she does get angry seriously. And she laugh because of the one freakin' boy sitting in front of the class who never get serious in his study life. Namely Othman. Botak by our Sejarah teacher. Sami by his close friends. During Geography. 1/4 of th students change their sitting place. And teacher asked, * this is ... LOL!*

'Ketua kelas, ada tak pelajar yang tukar tempat duduk?'
(Class monitor, is there anyone who change their sitting place)

'Ada, cikgu.'
(Yes, teacher)

'Siapa?'
(Who)

'Jeff! Othman!'
(Jeff! Othman!)

'Ada sesiapa lagi?'
(Anyone left?)

'Ada, cikgu. Voon Jack! Frango! Daim!'
(Yes, teacher! Voon Jack! Frango! Daim!)

'Itu saja?'
(That's it?)

'Ya, cikgu'
(Yes, teacher)

The assistant class monitor & the class monitor laugh evil-ly. Haha. But, whatever it is, this will never remains. They were so stubborn! They always change the sitting place. I'm done blogging but before that hear to this song!!

You Reign by Hillsong

What could stand before You
As You chose to embrace
A cross so undeserved You took for me
The weight of sin upon You
When You offered Your life
As You walked the streets of men
With fading strength

How could we live but not see
Your sacrifice
Your glory

You reign, You reign
Over everything Lord, You reign
With power, and justice divine
Over everything Lord, You reign

What was Your last thought
As You drew Your last breath
Where the victory was Yours for us to see
And all will know the truth
As we live by Your grace
Every praise to You alone

See now the King of Glory
Love of God become my calling
Father I surrender all I am to You forever

LET. ME. WHISPERED. TO. YOU

[such a disaster]

Written down a short post only.

*A post just for my babeh.

I miss my primary school best friends badly. We just can meet each other on Friday. wth!? We cant have a longer time to chit-chat. And here, I am telling you this. My best friends in primary school are much more better than now. Not to say my babeh now was not that good. sigh. Maybe they are reading my blog, I am not going to write the reason why here. Saying this, my best friends in primary school always there for me and never leave me alone. Joking with, walked with me wherever I go, talked to me when I am stress, released my tension with some random tosh. I miss both of you very much! You are my true babeh! I love both of you very much! And not to forget my dear darling Agatha, who've been very patience with my bad behaviour. haha. I never act badly lah. For 3 years we've been best friends, you were the one who keep us together. Thanks, dear! And not to forget my my gang that consists of 5 person. Two of them was my babeh that I've told you before. Three of them were, namely : Afiqah, Farah and Angelyn. Eventhough, we are from different religion, who cares? blerk! Whatever it is, I've lost my contacts with them. Will talk more about them next time. I miss them VERY MUCH!

I ♥ YOU ALL!

D+O+N+E = DONE

*speechless day.

At last, the case that happens in our school ends here! Really thanks God for that! I feel like rawrr-ing now.Another weird word I've learn from myself today. These another things happen in my life again. When the one over, the other one comes. wtheck?! But, thanks God it was not as horrible as the case that happened. It was just the emo one. What have I done till this things happens in my life and causes me to fear? For sure, I am tired of my life. Sometimes I do loves it, and the part I hate the most, I am forcing myself to fall in love with it so that I can go through this life as usual. But the question was, why can't I? I believe God does guides me in everything I do for I put all my trust to Him. All my mistakes, I am learning with all my heart and patience. Tragedy, I called. But whatever lah, that's what we called life don't we?

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For today, my friends and I talks tosh again. We do loved to talks tosh. Dont we, dear? The class today was super-bored. And that's the main purpose why we talked tosh. opps! Maths was the hyper-bored. The teacher that teach us for 6 months old, now moved to other placed. How I miss her. I hates the homework she gave us but I do love how she teach us but sometimes I dont. It depends on the topic. Eventhough, she scold us almost everytime she enter our class, but what? She's a teacher. Nothing wrong with it. A student must always have a bad memories about school. uhuh? So, the first day for our new Maths teacher was today. Guess what? First day, she teach us, she's sick. what the? And the class was not as noisy as usual when she teach because we dont know her really well yet. Soon to be, it will be noisy. Yeah. Soon to be.

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Assembly ends, Andrea suddenly shout my name out,

'Christie, later follow me to take the chair, okay? I dont have a any chair.'

'Sure!'

The chapter started from we passed by all the prefects to checked our nails and socks or maybe anything else. Then, we go to the canteen to buy a bottle of water for her. She didnt buy one for me! :'(( Ahah. Kidding. I was not thirsty after the almost one hour assembly or maybe more than 1 hour assembly. Done all the jobs in canteen, we go to the hall again to get the chairs for her. And I saw, Jill's ex. wopss. Hoping she is not going to kill me tomorrow for writing this in my blog and hoping for her not to read this post. *evil laugh. Andrea does talked to him but I dont. Why should I anyways? I just follow Andrea. And yeah, that's all. Waited for the prefects to get up of the chair because she don't dare to asked the chair from them yet. Suddenly, I heard a weird voice through my hears. LOL! And the junior prefects gathered? Issit the junior prefects? Not sure too! After everything settled down in the hall, of course we get lose! Out there, the short sketch begin. Andrea starts everything first.

'Christie, is that our Maths teacher?'

'Where? Which one?'

'There! The woman that walks through the greens'

'Uh? Where? Oh, I saw her! Hmm. Maybe.'

(Andrea and myself was just like, oh no!)

'Really? Woots! She's walking towards the stairs what?'

'Yeaaa, she does! WAIT!'

'Of course she does. Apalah you'

(She walks towards the stairs, Andrea and I started to says..)

'NOOOOOOOOOO!'

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The sketch ended right there. :D Seriously, both of us says the words 'No' together-gether

Signing out,
Christie-Kisstie

THERE'S ALWAYS A WAY

God will make a way
Where there seems to be no way
He works in ways, we cannot see

He will make a way for me
He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and strength for each new day
He will make a way
He will make a way

By the roadway in the wilderness
He'll leads me.
Rivers in the dessert will I see
Heaven and earth will fade.
But His words will still remain.
And He will do something new today.





God will always make a way even in whatever situation you are. Seek for help, and He is always there, ready to help you, FOREVER AND EVER.

Amen.

Praising Him,
Christie-Kisstie

I. NEED. YOU.

I pray, with all my heart, for His powers, to fall upon me, from deep inside my heart I've asked. To give me all my patience and to built my faith more and more and more upon Him and I need the Fire Of Praise to fall upon me. For I was a sinners, Lord, please teach me to forgive others. To understand them and to love them. Guide me, Lord as I go through this life. I miss You, Lord, in my life and I regret for forgetting you somedays. I regret it very much. Days by days, I lost my faith in You. More and More. Deeper and Deeper it fade away. I'm sorry for all my sins once again, Lord, for I was a real sinners, forgive me, I ask this with all my heart, for your Love was Indescribable.

From the highest of heights to the depths of the sea

Creation's revealing Your majesty

From the colors of fall to the fragrance of spring

Every creature unique in the song that it sings

All exclaiming

Indescribable, uncontainable,

You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.

You are amazing God

All powerful, untamable,

Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim

You are amazing God

Who has told every lightning bolt where it should go

Or seen heavenly storehouses laden with snow

Who imagined the sun and gives source to its light

Yet conceals it to bring us the coolness of night

None can fathom

Incomparable, unchangable,

You see the depths of my heart and You love me the same,

You are amazing God,

You are amazing God.

Amen.

Signing Out,
Christie-Kisstie

NOTHING. LAST. FOREVER

Sigh. My title for this post. Hmm. Nothing last forever? Rite? Correct me if I am not.

That was wrong anyways. Nothing last forever? NO! Your love to your loves one do last forever. Am I correct? I do, I guess so. Loves is a very precious things you should ever have in your life. Love? Sometimes, loves does hurt, and somethings loves turns the other way round. Have you ever felt the pain in your heart? What I can say was, ' Girls, dont give all your heart to your loves one because they can maybe hurts you and leave a hole in your heart. '

Currently, not in a mood for blogging actually. No topics to talked about lah. Talked about Love? Me got no experience. What was so great about that? Ohh. Lame I know. Somedays, I will understand everything about this. But for now, God, loves one and studies was the most important things that should have in my daily life. Some of my friend does make love with theirs. But when they broke-up. Resulted, they hurts. Turn up, I was the one to comfort them and give them advice. Eventhough I go no experience, I still go through all of this things patiently.

STOP right here! Cause I am not going to talk about this anymore.

The problem I posted out yesterday on my blog here, is still running in my mind. Why the heck in the world, this problem came and turning my mind round and round. I feels like I was in a jail. Locked-up! My sister was the one who get blamed but she was not the one supposed to get blamed. No sorry or mercy for the person who turns this problem out till everything resulted to this. The people who accuse her also, no sorry for you. Sorry to say this, but this is truly from my heart. It hurts me so much when I saw my sisters on my shoulder crying. I will forgive you until you ask sorry from deep inside your heart. My sister, everyday thinking of it. Till she didnt eat anything to filled her stomach up. How if she get pain? The one I'll first blame was the one who accuse her. And from there, eventhough you ask for forgiveness, there's no forgiveness. You left her heart bleeding away, till her mind was disturb just because of this. Sigh.

I really get angry when something happen to my sister just because of a very tiny small little problem. Then someone tries to make the problem become bigger and bigger. It was actually a very easy stuff to solve off. Why don't that girl just admit what she have done and didnt accuse people without any prove at all! Till this news are spread around Form 5. I'm tired of this problem. But, whoever tries to disturb my sister life, I'll take some action, seriously.

Sighing off,
Christie-Kisstie

THE. TRUTH. WILL. BE. KNOWN.

How many problems are there waiting for me and the others as we go through this life?

This post is going to be very complicated for you to read. The only people who will understand this will be the one who was with me to solved this problem as a gang.

I am really stress nowadays. This happens not because of my problem but because of someone problem. This case suddenly appeared in my life, how can this happen? Earlier before, telling you again, this is not my case, it's my friend. Who started this all over again? THAT LIAR! I feels like screaming now. Why? My friend, she was like my sister. Fine. Sister in Christ. Somehow, a prefect accuse her vandalize the school toilet. The prefect was informed by someone about this. sigh. And someone told me that the prefect was a real gosippers. *shocked* I was just like' No wonder all the Form 5 students thought that was my sister do this thing. But, just to correct the situation, she didnt vandalize. ' Ended up, today, she cried. I feel so down. I dont know why I feel this way. When someone hurt my best friend, that means they are hurting me. We were just like sisters. We do care about each other and we help each other even in however problem we are in.

So, this was the real situation currently happened.

Yesterday, our discipline teacher suddenly entered our class. This case was actually told by my Maths teacher before the discipline teacher came. So, the discipline teacher entered our classroom. She called the students name which was written by someone, the vandalizer. They were two students who've been called by that discipline teacher. Both of them truly really shocked. They looks blur. Really blur! Looks like they were asking theirself what is happening?
After a few minutes, the teacher asked them to follow her to the staffroom. So, they do followed her. And a few minutes after, bell rang, everyone rushed to the toilet to see what was written by the vandalizer. What was written down? I can't tell you here. Private was the things. I didnt go to the toilet straight away because I got something to be done in the staffroom also. I go along with my dear darling friend. :D

After the job in the staffroom done, me and her go to the toilet straight away! Without no other idea where to go next. When we arrived, I saw the words written down there! So big! My another friend says, ' Besar benar juak tulisan tok! ' (This handwriting looks so big!) I think everyone was shocked. Next, we go back to the class. Down the school blog, our discipline teacher talk to my sister and her friend that was with her. She asked them whether they recognised the handwriting or not. They say yes. It looks like ---- handwriting. It was just a MAYBE for that answer anyways, they told the teacher. The person they talked about came down to meet the teacher. She was punished to stand outside of the staffroom. During recess time, a prefect go and see her. We are not sure what she was talking about to that prefect. So, the day ended up just like that. I dont want to talk much about what exactly happened on that day. During the last period, she do admit she was the one who did it.

Next morning.

I arrived the school at 6.45 am something. Immdiately, I was informed by my sister that someone acusse her that she was the one who vandalise. WHAT!?#$%&@* So yeah. She says, the girl that was punished by the teacher actually tell the prefect that she did that. Ended up, during the first period, she cried. Was so hurt when I look at her. However it is, me and my friends comfort her. She cried because of the words that was spread everywhere in Form 5 blocks. She wasn't the one who vandalise. Yet, she was the one being accused by that person. What I do was, ask her to calm down. Ask her to pray. To ask some helps from Him. For He was the great Helper in the whole wide world. Some days, the truth will be known by everyone. During recess time, the sister's of the victim came to the class and talked to her. She looks so serious and really angry. Hey! Who didnt, right? As a sister, we do care about our little sister. Didn't we? Recess ended. The last period. We go and find for the discipline teacher. She was not in the staffroom. Was so angry. And so tired. Walking through the stairs up and down. But for the sake of my friend, I am willing to do this to help her and to reveal the truth. I am so dissapointed to the girl who has accuse my sister. :'((

THE END!

Anyways, I saw this in my dear darling friend MSN message,

'Nothing last forever-not even you'

That was a real statement. The past will be the past, it will never be start over again.

p/s: Give me some comments on how to solve this problem. And sorry for the complicated post.

SHOUT. LOUDLY.

A very, very random short post.

Soon, I am going to change my template. Feel bored everytime I enter my blog, it's the same thing appear. Time to change again. I think this was the 6th time I've change it, yeah? SOON! The new one is much more nicer. Blacker! It works to make my eyes feeling better. Current mood, I'm happy go lucky. Was not like last Sunday anymore. So, so the very sleepy the next morning. I slept at 12.30 pm just to finish my projects. RAWRRR! The reason why I do that was because the the teacher told us that the projects must be done on Monday. Ended up, on that Monday, the teacher says, 'You can actually send it in this week.' Patah semangat straight away! @#^@#$^#$*..
If I know it can be send in this week, I would solve the problem today or tomorrow and not to sleep at 12.30 pm. Sigh. Whatever it is, still got a lots of projects to go. 5 projects all. 1 done, 4 projects to go. YAWNNN!